My first blog

Whoa!Feeling damn excited about finally getting down to pen my first blog......Doesn't take much to excite this enthu cutlet, I guess :)

Was wondering why a simple thing like starting off a blog could get me so pumped up and a lil bit of soul searching followed......

There used to be a time when the kiddo me wud pen down the nice lil details of my everyday life in a neat lil diary......a young la-Annie Frank indeed.At that tender age,however, the sole purpose of penning down things in a diary was just to go by the bright write-your-daily-diary advice that mom gave me.Rewinding to those years,she was what I perceived as 'the most intelligent know-all kinda human being' n if she was telling me to scribble in a diary,wat the heck! it HAD to be a very bright idea indeed.So off I went,penning page after page everyday.I,as a kid,had a jolly good time flaunting my diary - which at that time had everything from my babble to friend-list to favourite yummies list to newspaper cutouts to homework list to small talk about the everyday happenings in school! When I could find nothing at all to write about, I'd put in a sketch for kicks just to show off later to mom that I've been updating my diary EVERY single day and get those wonderful appreciation pecks on my cheek from her :) I must also mention that one of the hidden purposes was to improve my handwriting and keep the wicked Ms.Mukta at bay.Gosh!Wat a nightmare of a teacher she was!The daemoness of my wee world used to break my knuckles and shatter her glass bangles in the process of slapping her naughty pupil.Flipping thru the pages of such wonderful memories,random musingz and yeah!sometimes the nasty things that I had penned down, gave me a free trip to the immensely enjoyable world of nostalgia......a world that would refresh my lil learnings picked up carefully and painstakingly in the years gone by,a world that would remind me of cronies who were once/are such an integral part of my life,a world that would remind me of the best and the worst of my moods,a world that would reveal the best and the worst of my attitude to the awesome goodies as well as the hum-drum of daily life......in toto, a world that I enjoyed visiting time n again.

With the passage of time,however,the appreciation pecks failed to work their magic because the now audacious me,knew I'd get em neways - diary or no diary :) The daily updates dwindled in number and some of the best and the worst events of my life,some of the best ideas that the maverick mind came up with, some of the soul-searching questions that I had and am still grappling with - they all went without a mention in my treasured diary.No solid reason to stop scribbling I guess.....any way,some things are dead n buried in the past that has gone by and it's inconsequential to dig into the 'why n how' of them anymore.College saw a smal revival of this practice but I was a big fat lazy bum by then!When I got everyday free access to a comp of my own with a free fast internet connection at this 'cyber cafe' (read 'MY OFFICE') ,i thought Id get down to writing again.......I somehow thought my life was way too interesting,way too happening to just go down to the grave without a soul knowing about the wonderful epitaph it deserved.By now, a desire to write an autobiography in the dusky years of my life had grown very strong,not to forget mentioning the concern about the handful of readers who'd pro'ly pick it up :) This brought back reminders of my diary - now a thing of the past,safely tucked away to gather dust in one of those dingy corners of my cosy room.I was fascinated with the idea of reviving the whole joie-de-vivre by writing a blog.But thanks to a few hard lessons about the big bad world,about how some people can misuse any kinda info that they know about someone,about how revealing your deepest self to a comrade could work against you at times, I remained skeptical about the whole idea of penning down wat touched me deep within.But now, I have struck the middle path again and here Iam - writing a blog, taking care to draw the lines where I should, to write about the stuff that I think is ok to share, to hide the rest with my good ol friend - the dust-gathering diary :)